Oh no, I'm a Food Addict

Fat Foody! Just today I learned I am a food addict. I was watching celebrity rehab last night and thinking how rediculous those people were, when it struct me, I am just like them, where do I get off criticizing. OK, being critical is my nature, but at this point, I could be wrong. I do think Jeff Conway needs to dump his girlfriend, but that is another subject. Anyway, I am a food addict. I think about it all the time, as soon as I get up in the morning until I go to bed at night. What am I going to have for breakfast, what am I going to have for lunch, how am I going to get through dinner without gaining weight. It comes out as some kind of strategy, but its not, its just an excuse to constantly think about food. Ok, so I use to drink, but at least when I drank I was thinner. But still, toward the end of my drinking I was a lot fatter. I knew that if I quit drinking, I would immediaely lose 50 lbs. Well, that didn't work. That is when I really became obsessed with eating. I think about food all-the-time. How do I stop. I know Oprah is a food addict, she said so! She kept weight off for what, about 5 years, and now her weight is coming back on, the same with Carnie Wilson. I know, I know, Oprah has a thyroid problem. So do I, but I just can't accept that is why we are fat. It must really be difficult for them. I was only constantly criticized by my ex husband. They are constanty critcized by the world. I know Carnie is really struggling because she was on celebrity fit club, now she is on Goin' country, and it is obvious that she has gained a lot of her weight back and it does bother her. When she sang her first song in Nashville one of the things she was worried about was that the audience was going to think she was fat. Can you believe it. With Carnies incredible voice and Oprahs money, they are still worried about being fat. What hope do I have. I might go to "food addicts in recovery" tommorrow. Right before, or after I work out for 2 hours so I can get through the weekend without gaining any weight. With Love, Pam.