Fat Spouse?

I can't believe there is a websight called "MyFatSpouse.Com". Yes, I was a fat spouse. I know what it is like to be fatter than your husband and have him tell you about it every day. If you have a fat spouse and don't like, please just get a divorce, and if you are dating someone who repulses you, break up with them.  There is no use belittling them every day. What I don't understand is why we put up with it. I finally could not take it any more and divorced my husband. Why should I be abused just because I am overweight. Do people think that fat people do not know they are fat. Do you really think you have to tell them.  And besides that do you think you are perfect. I overlooked all his faults because I loved him. I tried every diet on the market. It wasn't like I was a slug that just sat on the couch and did nothing. I did all the housework, all the lawn work, and kept the cars washed. And worked out every day. I just ate too much. Sue Me. He drank beer and made me go out to eat with him. I guess I was just suppose to sit and watch him eat and drink. My sisters husband was even worse, she had to tell him everything she ate. I hope my ex married some skinny B-----. He deserves it. Oh well I don't have to worry about it now. But I am scarred for life. Come to think of it, my first husband did the same thing to me, and I only weighed 150 lbs then. Still not skinny enough. But then, what is skinny enough? I am so sick of weight. I will never put myself in that position again. I would rather be alone, than be told I am not good enough on a daily basis. Still not dieting and eating fried chicken every day and still losing. I will fill you in Monday. I think diets make you fat. Love Pam

Lost 4 lbs last week

My new strategy is not to go on another "Diet". "Diet" implies that it is something you are going to go off. I can't do it. I saw queen latifahs diet commercial for Jenny Craig. The one where she is going to eat healthy. If that food is healthy, I am going to eat fried chicken for lunch and dinner everyday. That's what I did for the last 7 days and I lost 4 lbs. I also had dessert for lunch and dinner each day, and a biscuit. The answer was I only ate one piece of chicken instead of a whole chicken and I ate 3 bites of dessert. That must be the key, know when to stop. Well anyway I am going to try it for another week. Also, I am going to work out for at least a little while before I go to bed so I don't just lay on my food. I got up tonight when I couldn't sleep and did the elliptical for a half hour. Also, I let the dog out and she didn't come back, so I put my coat and boots on and went looking for her. I found her on the porch barking to get in when I got back. When am I going to learn. So that was a nice little walk at 2:00 in the morning. I don't know if the dog is stupid or I am stupid.

I don't believe it. Another one bites the dust. Kirstie Alley has been excommunicated from Jenny Craig. Valerie Bertinelli and Queen Latifa are now reigning to sell their crappy processed food. How humiliating. "Sorry Lady, you are too fat to sell our crappy Food". At least Queen Latifa has covered her A**, she is promoting health. How could all that sodium, fat, and starch be healthy. I guess there is no guilt in advertising. Like somebody is going to be able to eat that stuff for the rest of their lives.

I have come across http://conquerfood.com/. This is something that I find very interesting and have gotten the book from the library. Not only that, but I have emailed her several times, and she gets right back to me with comments and answers.

I went to the Red Lobster last night. You all would have been proud. I had a cup of gumbo, Shrimp cocktail, and a biscuit. I passed up the choco chip cookie my daughters grandmother brought. I waited until I got home and had bakery cake from McKenzies, which is to die for and some ben and jerrys vanilla ice cream. I actually weighed less this morning. For you WW addicts, my meal came to 12 points not counting the cake and ice cream. How many points could have been in the Seafood Platter. I had one, not two biscuits, the shrimp cocktail and a Cup not a bowl of soup. 12 points, are you kidding. No wonder I am fat.

Yesterday I had one cup of coffee and one diet pepsi. The conquer lady says do not eat diet food, but I am addicted to diet pepsi. I was drinking 4 to 5 a day. Now I am down to one. I was drinking at least three grande coffees each morning now I am down to one. Cease the Day. Love you all. Foody.

Oh no, I'm a Food Addict

Fat Foody! Just today I learned I am a food addict. I was watching celebrity rehab last night and thinking how rediculous those people were, when it struct me, I am just like them, where do I get off criticizing. OK, being critical is my nature, but at this point, I could be wrong. I do think Jeff Conway needs to dump his girlfriend, but that is another subject. Anyway, I am a food addict. I think about it all the time, as soon as I get up in the morning until I go to bed at night. What am I going to have for breakfast, what am I going to have for lunch, how am I going to get through dinner without gaining weight. It comes out as some kind of strategy, but its not, its just an excuse to constantly think about food. Ok, so I use to drink, but at least when I drank I was thinner. But still, toward the end of my drinking I was a lot fatter. I knew that if I quit drinking, I would immediaely lose 50 lbs. Well, that didn't work. That is when I really became obsessed with eating. I think about food all-the-time. How do I stop. I know Oprah is a food addict, she said so! She kept weight off for what, about 5 years, and now her weight is coming back on, the same with Carnie Wilson. I know, I know, Oprah has a thyroid problem. So do I, but I just can't accept that is why we are fat. It must really be difficult for them. I was only constantly criticized by my ex husband. They are constanty critcized by the world. I know Carnie is really struggling because she was on celebrity fit club, now she is on Goin' country, and it is obvious that she has gained a lot of her weight back and it does bother her. When she sang her first song in Nashville one of the things she was worried about was that the audience was going to think she was fat. Can you believe it. With Carnies incredible voice and Oprahs money, they are still worried about being fat. What hope do I have. I might go to "food addicts in recovery" tommorrow. Right before, or after I work out for 2 hours so I can get through the weekend without gaining any weight. With Love, Pam.